retrospect, my wife in recent years has been trapped in a cage of fear. A cage, which allowed her but no flight, but it was designed so that their children and to a certain extent, I was locked up with.
has now changed the situation. The cage in which infected my wife now is a cage of the missing skills for them. released into the wild are our children and me. We do not have to follow strict rituals or do not have to deal with what happens if we do not follow the rituals (it was a strange moment yesterday when I after shopping at some point once thought "Oh God, I've still got the shoes on and went long ago with the shoes through the whole house was. The shoes were dry and clean and it was comfortable right out of the garage and house purchases have to).
My wife has a disability - severely disabled - from behandelden doctor now been classified. The acute disease of the brain is pushed back so far, but she does not have a small part of the brain damaged. Those areas that were with my wife, honoring, among other things responsible for her character seems to have been severely destroyed. You will be able to understand what happens in the future. However, it will not be able to act independently plan, can. With expected. And so we come full circle: she could with the OCD so many things are not planning as it was limited from the outset in the planning. Now they can not plan everything because their brains no longer provides for this.
The story out of the OCD is so written for me. I am not affected. Can decide on my own. But unfortunately in a very different way, as I have imagined myself. For years I have laid with the hope that one day a harmonious, happy and real partnership, life will be possible. 've Imagined how wonderful it would be if I have the woman I loved and married, one can experience in a time after the impact of severe OCD. How can we live together. And now everything is destroyed. There will be no normal life. My wife will remain disabled in a way that reflects limits in a way that I like, at least not yet able to dream happily. My wife has survived serious illness. But it remains in a cage. And I have to see that the cage is not refuted about me and our children.
If narrow constraints determine life, life, and makes love to the test, it remains for me to draw, however, the doctrine is worth fighting. It would finally be different and without this massive brain disease can proceed.
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